"Ready, And Waiting To Fall"

I don't want to give up.
But I feel like I'm the most unluckiest person.
I want to prove it wrong,
but how can I go against fate?

However,
it feels like this one is SOOO different.
I can't explain it.
It just feels as if "us" is supposed to happen.
I just need to find a way to get to it.

I don't know if he even paid attention to me that day.
All I know is that, I have.
I've paid attention,
and look where it's gotten me.

I feel like I've missed that chance that day.
And everything would be so different
if I had taken that chance.
It makes me so frustrated that it was in my reach!
How could I let it slip through my fingers like that ?!

I just need to remind him of who I am.
Let him take notice,
and see where it takes us.

But I'm so frightened of the thought,
what if he won't see it?

I've gotten my hopes skyrocket before,
just for him,
and he let me fall flat on my face when it backfired.
If I get my hopes even higher,
for the fact that if I meet him again and remind him of me,
I don't want to fall again,
and look like a complete idiot.

But what should that matter?
He IS worth the risk. I know it.

But everyone's afraid of being
rejected.