Love is a powerful word

For some, LOVE is a powerful word.

For others, LOVE is just another fad to follow.

But I , do not intend to follow the fad. It is just stupid and wrong

to take someone for granted. To tell someone lies to

and claim that you actually do love them,

when in reality,

you're just pretending.

You wouldn't think lust would hurt anyone,

because it's not physical.

But naive as you are, my dear,

lust is the worst kind of pain you can inflict on someone.

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I'm smarter than this.

Or at least, I should be.

Feelings are so hard to control. And sometimes you can get them mixed up.

Which is why I tend to be smarter than most.

I've been through heartbreak and tears, and I never want to go back to them again.

So I've taken the liberty of blocking LUST out.

Not LOVE, but LUST.

And maybe I could be wrong about this whole thing,

and in reality, I could just be much more stupid than everyone else.

I could also just be really cautious.

I don't want to mistake LUST as LOVE,

because I don't want to be a hypocrite and lie to someone.

My poor sympathetic heart

has me afraid

to love someone.

Because I don't want to be lying.

My mind would say I'm better than this, and walk away,

because I know this is just LUST.

But my heart continues to fight shouting out,

"This could be different."

And I don't know which one to listen to.

I've read over the signs,

and I know there's more to his life story.

But to me, with me,

it feels as if it just comes naturally.

But he could just be that one boy that has that special gift.

The special gift of meeting girls,

and just by talking to them,

other times with just complete silence,

can make their emotions go crazy, and out of whack,

that they'll claim they LOVE him.

He's that one distraction, that one poison,

that interrupts the mind's work

of interpreting whether or not it's LOVE , or LUST.

And he can do it single-handedly.

Which makes me very afraid of falling more than 10 ft. deep

into the sea of sadness.

They always say, "look before you fall."

well, I looked.

And it's a long way down.

But my heart tells me to jump,

thinking he'll be down there to stop my fall.

But reality's much more cruel than that.