idk why I'm still here

I don't even know where to begin with this feeling. Right now, I hate myself for being able to see.

Because if I didn't see you I wouldn't feel like this.

Honestly, for surely this time, I have never felt like this. I am not joking. You are the only person able to make me feel like I have NOTHING in this world if it isn't you.

For me, I have reached a whole new level of being depressed. It's because of you,

that I have to put great effort just to try to smile.

I hate my life.

I can honestly say that even with the greatest friends I could possibly have,

who go out of their way just to walk through this with me.

You are the reason that lets me know life is teasing me;

Before, I was doing just fine. I didn't need anybody.

But it wasn't until when Life showed me who you were,

that I actually wonder what I ever did to deserve this.

Right now, I am the caged dog. Life is the teaser. :

Life attaches 'him', like a bone, to a string tied to a stick.

Life throws the bone into my cage, and as I aim to get it,

Life reels it back and out of my reach.

I am the caged dog and Life is the teaser.

And I can't take it anymore.

From the very first second I saw you, and you saw me, I thought I'd actually have a chance

with the way your eyes gleamed at me like we knew each other our whole life.

I guess I was the only one to notice it,

because for a split second, I actually knew it would be possible for us.

But I guess you don't even want to try to see it.

And it gives me such pain that I could actually feel my heart breaking.

I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, IF I CAN'T HAVE YOU!

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It wasn't my fault for falling for you. You were the one who tripped me.