Julio Gabriel Jorge Dizon

You are my EVERYTHING! You mean more to me than anything in this Godforsaken world. I gave you my heart. Which means I very much trust you with the most fragile thing in the world. I TRUST YOU. You are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. You are the one I'd want to face all the challenges with. You are the one I need, to walk with me, by my side, through life. You are the one I want to grow old with. You are the one I'd want to marry. I need you in my life. I don't know where I'd be if I never had you, and I can't imagine life without you. And I never want to go back to a life without you. You're the one for me, I know it. I can feel it in my veins, and my whole body. I can feel it in my heart. That is why I anticipate the day I get to go HOME. Home being wherever you are. Because with you, I feel at home. And that's where I want to stay forever. I don't care where we are. As long as I'm with you, I will be the happiest person alive. Because that's the only thing I want. From July 17, 2010 at 9:04pm, I want to be with you forever. I love you, Julio Gabriel Jorge Dizon.

The Most Foolish Traveler In The World

Once upon a time there was this foolish traveler who had gone on a journey.

Why was he foolish? Well because he was fooled by everyone he'd met.

Everywhere he went people made up all kinds of sad stories to tell him,

and the traveler fell for every one of them.

Pretty soon his money, his clothes, even his shoes have been cheated away from him,

but the foolish traveler was always glad to help

and he always told people the same thing. He said, "I wish you happiness."

But by this point, the traveler was completely naked and with nothing left to cover himself

he decided to leave the main road and travel through the dense forest where no one can see him.

But soon he was discovered by the goblins that lived in the woods.

The goblins wanted to eat the traveler's body!

So they begged and they pleaded and they used kind words to try and trick him.

Of course, the traveler was fooled.

First he let the goblins eat one of his legs, then an arm, then more and more.

After it was over all the traveler had left was his head.

He'd even given his eyes away to the last of the goblins.

And as the last goblin was eating the traveler's eyes, he turned and said,

"Thank you, traveler. In return I leave you this present."

All the goblin left was this piece of paper with the word "fool" written on it.

The traveler couldn't see it, he didn't know what it was.

Even so, tears began to float out of his face.

"Thank you," he said, "This is the first present anyone's ever given me, I'm so happy! I'm so happy, thank you."

Even without his eyes, he cried and he cried great tears of joy.

Then, the traveler died, the smile still on his face.

And that's the end of the story.

Right after we heard that yesterday, all of the other kids in the class started making fun of the traveler.

But while they did that, I closed my eyes and thought about him a little longer.

I thought about how he'd given everything away, until all he had left was his head.

And how at the end, he still cried for joy as he said, "Thank you."

And then I realized, I feel so sorry for him.

See; Loss, hardship, things like that, you can't only focus on them.

The traveler didn't. He never thought about his own troubles at all.

I imagine it does sound foolish to some people, but not to me.

I don't think he's foolish at all.

Even though other people probably think he was being tricked, I don't think he was.

I think he did exactly what he wanted to do.

I think, more than anything, he just wanted to make other people happy.

What about you? What do you think?

Really, is that foolish?

When you close your eyes and think about it, is that what it is?

Have you ever put much thought into it?

Have you ever missed somebody so much that you broke down crying?

But then soon wondered why you were crying when you know you'd get to see them again.

Shouldn't you be happy that you still get to see them?

So why did we cry?

Does that make us spoiled if we constantly yearn for someone's presence everyday?

We know it's out of love, but tell me honestly, doesn't it sound spoiled?

To want to be with someone, every single day, all the time.

To continuously be sad throughout your whole day, and possibly worrying other people.

That's pretty selfish, if you ask me.

But then, if missing someone is such a bad thing, what about not caring at all?

It seems even worst.

Because if you act like you don't care about a person at all,

and acknowledge their well-being,

you're just taking advantage of them and their feelings.

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So, You're either spoiled , or ungrateful.

Which one are you?

Not Enough Words

Ever since July 17th, 2010 , my life became so much brighter.

And for once in my life, I can actually say that I am happy.

And that I have no more reason to fake smile anymore.

And it's all thanks to

JULIO GABRIEL JORGE DIZON.

I'm kind of at a loss for words right now,

seeing that after all the hardships and breakdowns I've had,

Life has finally decided to give me happiness.

And because of him, my heart is no longer aching.

I don't have to suffer anymore heartbreaks.

I've been misread, misguided, and misunderstood.

But he showed me an opened door,

after I've been staring at all the closed ones for so long.

He touched my heart and taught me how to love

and I've never been more optimistic in my life.

For some reason, he let's me see the good in things without even trying.

He's kind of like a prince charming,

who came to rescue me from my sad life, when I've almost lost all hope.

Being with him, just feels SO right.

Right when he asked me the official question,

I knew right then and there,

that I wouldn't want to spend my life with anyone, but HIM.

And I truly believe that he loves me, for me.

I never want to feel like I'm losing him,

And I never want to make him feel like he's losing me.

He shouldn't feel that way,

because NO ONE can ever change my feelings for him.

Sure, there are lots of other guys out there, but I chose him out of all the others.

He's the only one I want to spend my life with.

And I could change my mind, but why would I?

He's perfect for me.

Most of the time, he leaves me speechless.

Even at the littlest things he says or does.

I think about him 24/7 , no matter what.

He's the last person that's on my mind before I go to sleep,

and the very first one right when I wake up.

Everyday I wonder what he's doing at the moment

and if he's thinking about me.

Every time the phone rings, I secretly hope it would be him,

wanting to hear my voice that day.

When I hear his voice, it just somehow makes me smile.

Each time I talk to him on the phone,

I'll close my eyes and listen to his voice (only if he's speaking)

Because it feels like he's in the same room right beside me,

whispering in my ear.

And when I do get a chance to spend the day with him,

I will cherish that moment

because we'll never know how long it will be until the next time we meet.

Once he leaves my side, I'm just lost without him.

It makes me sad that I can't be with him everyday,

but it's not our fault.

We just have to be patient and wait,

because one day, we'll be able to spend every day together.

And it'll be worth the wait to be able to wake up every morning

with him right beside me.

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I'm just so glad I took the chance to see how much better my life is with him.

Because I honestly don't know how my life would be without him.

I would say I want to be with him forever,

but "forever" just doesn't seem long enough.

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I'll watch the night turn light blue,

but it's not the same without you.

Because it takes two to whisper quietly.

The silence isn't so bad,

'til I look at my hands and feel sad.

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perfectly.

As many times as I'll blink,

I'll think of you,

tonight.

- Owl City 's "Vanilla Twilight"

I'm falling way too fast. Someone catch me.

Before I fall, too fast

kiss me quick,

but make it last.

So I could see how badly this will hurt me

when you say goodbye.

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This is not good at all.

I forgot to look before I fell,

so now I'm waiting to see if he'll catch me, or not.

I have a good feeling about this one,

but I can't be too sure, because I'm not exactly Clairvoyant.

I could just be misreading things.

But I just can't shake the feeling off that this is SO RIGHT.

I can HONESTLY say, that he gives me butterflies.

I've never had them for any other guy, and I've always wanted to meet a guy

who will give me butterflies.

And now that I've finally found him,

I'm not going to give up without a fight.

This time, I WILL not give up so easily.

What catches me off guard though, is that I daydream about him...

I've been thinking of how we'll fall in love, when we'll fall in love,

what we'll do as a couple, and how in love we are.

It makes me want to stay in my dreams forever.

Because everything goes the way I'd like it to go.

And I hate when I wake up or snap back to reality.

Bad thing about this mishap is that I've just met the dude,

and I've already got it bad. SERIOUSLY.

I don't know how the fxck this happened so damn quickly,

but to my surprise I don't care what anyone says.

I'm just wondering if I'm moving too fast.

I like to be smart about this and think it through

and try to slow down.

But I guess it's because I'm not getting enough love?

I think I'm moving too fast because I miss the feeling of being loved.

I miss being in a relationship,

and I want to feel that special feeling you get when you're with someone you love.

You can say I've been watching too much romance movies,

but I also see a few couples who are just like that,

and I want to have one for myself.

And even though I know why I'm moving too fast,

it's so hard to slow things down.

I'm honestly trying, but I want him.

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'Cause you're so hypnotizing,

you've got me laughing while I sing,

you've got me smiling in my sleep.

And I can see this unraveling your love is where I'm falling,

but please don't catch me.

You're worth the risk

I don't know what to believe anymore.

Everything that I thought was right,

was wrong.

I thought you were my one chance of being happy,

and there would be no reason to fake smile.

I thought you were different this time. I thought I could change you.

But you just treat me like every other girl you've dated.

But I'm not sad over the fact that you didn't choose me.

In fact, I could care less.

But it's the fact that I was being so blind and utterly stupid!

I swore to myself, before, that I wouldn't let your charm fool me,

and I'll be smarter than the rest.

I was doing fine,

but I guess I let my guard down.

And even for the smallest amount of time that I didn't have my shield up,

you took advantage of it and charged full speed ahead

and into my heart, breaking every lock and every chain binded to it.

So now I'm hooked with no way out of it.

I just wish, that you would see how much I care about you,

and how much I'm willing to risk for you.

Don't underestimate me,

I may not fully understand, but I do, in fact, understand.

Enough to help you.

We only wish

"We all wish for things, and expect them to happen instantly.
But what we don't know is that,
God has granted the first step to getting our wish.
We just need to have the wisdom, the strength, and the courage
to take the second step,
then the third,
and to keep climbing those stairs
UNTIL we get our wish."


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Wishing is not enough. It's also taking action.